This has been quite an emotional journey for me. I don't even really know what to say. This is the journey we were told we would be on. This is the journey we dreaded. This is the journey, that for us, never happened.
My heart aches for The Mack Family. As blessed as they have been, and as much as they have touched many lives, by sharing their son with us. He still went to heaven. He WILL be with them forever, and he didn't NEED to be on earth. But he still went to heaven.
Tonight, it doesn't seem fair. Tonight I look at Jack, and wonder what would our life be like without this sweet boy. This sweet boy, who just climbed up on a chair, opened a drawer, pulled out a bag of 200 straws, and threw them on the floor. This sweet boy, who was supposed to be there to meet Kaden in heaven. Why is Jack here, and Kaden isn't?
It has been so interesting for me, how so many people love my little Jacky, and have never met him. Well, now I get it. I love baby Kaden. I have been so upset I was not able to go meet him. I just didn't dare with all our sicknesses.
I just know, that we too will see him in heaven. I think even in heaven, all our special kids will have a club. But the ones who get to heaven first will be running it.
So I go to bed tonight with a heavy, but thankful heart. Thankful to have "met" someone like Kaden. Thankful for my testimony of eternal families.
Thankful for my beautiful Baby/Toddler... Jack.