Examine your life.

I subscribe to LDS Nuggets. I got this one today. Sometimes...I get exactly what I need.

"I urge you to examine your life. Determine where you are and what you need to do to be the kind of person you want to be. Create inspiring, noble, and righteous goals that fire your imagination and create excitement in your heart. And then keep your eye on them. Work consistently towards achieving them."

--Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin, "Life's Lessons Learned", May 2007 Ensign

I was recently getting a lecture from a friend, about taking my life back. I feel like this depression has stolen my life. If you have dealt with this, you know what I mean.

One thing that has stuck with me from said lecture, is that I need to stop TRYING, and just do it! I have always said, if you are going to have a baby natural, you can't TRY, you have to be committed to it. If you go into it with the, "I will try to go as long as I can" attitude, you'll have a really hard time succeeding. I was telling me sweet friend this, and he said..."TAKE YOUR OWN ADVISE!!!" I had honestly never thought of my life in this regard. My friend/therapist ;) said, "Are you giving an honest effort to changing your life?" My first response was YES! But as we talked about it in depth, I realize I'm not. I'm giving a good effort, but not all that I have. But when you've dug yourself as deep a hole as I have, it is taking more than ALL I have to get out. It's a daily struggle with the old me, and the me I've become, and don't like. This whole concept of reinvention, melding the aspects I like about my old, and new life, and trashing the parts I don't. It's overwhelming, and exciting.

I'm doing things daily, to get my life back. One thing I'm doing, is to stop saying...Oh that is too hard. I just have to stop finding excuses and do it!! Easier said than done, but day by day, it's getting easier!