Jack + School = Mom freaking out

K, So Jack's preschool is called Play and Learn. It's through Early Intervention. It's only two days a week, for an hour and a half. I'm nervous and excited about it. I mean, I feel like he's so little/young. And he goes without me. At least he'll think he's without me. I'll be behind the two way glass watching him. But maybe that will make it worse! I don't know. Standing behind glass watching him not play with anyone, or cry, cuz he wants me to stay with him. Or seeing that I know what he wants, but the teacher isn't getting it. ugh He has signs, but his own modified version. WE know what he is saying. Even the words he does have, again, are modified versions. Like "train" is "ain", but so is "rain".

And he is so different. He looks different, he doesn't talk- really. I don't know. I know I'm probably over analyzing it. I guess what I am frustrated with this week is, he is not in a category. He doesn't have down syndrome, or autism. We don't know what kind of learning disabilities he'll have, if any. Not that kids with those "labels" come with manuals, but they come with something! Ya know? I know he has hydrocephalus, but that is a HUGE unknown. Kids have such varying degrees of it. Well I guess degrees of "brain damage". Seriously, there are people who you'd never know, had hydro. Will Jack be like that? There are people who go their whole lives, not knowing their Corpus Collasum is missing, or displaced. Will Jack ever show signs of it?

And maybe Jack is the norm, for this kind of class. And by that I mean, all the kids in his class, have unknowns. I mean really, they are all under 3. How much can you really tell about how a 2 yr old is gonna learn?

And ya know...I'm just venting. I know, that it's only for a hour and a half. I know, that him being around kids his own age, may bring him out more, and he might start talking more. But... I will say, he HAS been taking more, and it is obvious, the more he talks, the more speech therapy I see he needs. But...will he "talk" for the therapist? I doubt it. I try to work on stuff, like blowing through his mouth, so he gets used to air coming out there, instead of his nose. But the more sounds he makes/attempts, the worse it sounds.

I've also thought, maybe repairing his hard palate early, would help. But the sh, and s sounds seem to be going back to far, and over his soft palate. Who knows.

Well, I'll keep you posted on how it all goes. I just need to not think about it too much. I might lose my mind!