The Big 4-0

So tomorrow's the day. The day I become middle aged. Yes? Is it 40 or 50? I don't know. Anyway.. as the day approaches, I find myself reflecting on my life. 40 years on earth. Sheesh, that's a long time. But when I look back on it, I'm glad it took 40 years! :) I've been a busy girl!

Sure there's things I would change, but then I think I wouldn't be who I am today. I know, I've talked about this before, so I'll direct you back to this post. But honestly, don't you look back and think why did I do this, or that. Why did I date him or her...just kidding. HIM! Why did I make that choice or this one. I could spend a lifetime thinking about it. Thinking about, if I hadn't gone to Ricks, or Disneyland, or Logan. What if I had stayed in Cali. What if I had gone to Cali straight out of HS, with a certain boy. What if I'd picked the Cali boy, over the Utah boy. Most of this probably doesn't make sense to you, and that's ok, it does to me! :) And I am once again thinking "out loud" on my blog!! ;)

Then I look at my kidlets. Gracious. Nick is now nose to nose with me. It's insane. I remember like it was yesterday, wanting desperately to get married, and start a family. 4 new people, and 15 years later... my 40th Birthday is tomorrow.

Sometimes, too often actually, I think what have I done with my life. Sure I have 4 beautiful kids. Sure they have a bad habit of not listening and leaving their crap everywhere, but what kid isn't like that. They are compassionate wonderful people, and when the chips are down, they shine. We have our struggles, but I know they love each other, and are kind and considerate, in public mostly... ;)

So I'm having a HUGE carnival/party. Everyone who's anyone will be there. Mariah, Tom and Rita, Pink. We'll have games, and a ferris wheel, and bumper cars...Oh wait, that was Ellen. *rolling eyes* Wish my girlfriend would throw me a party like THAT! Whatever.

It will be a busy day, even without the carnival. Emma's program, and picnic are in the morning, then I have choir, and maybe a David Voting Party, I'm deciding if I can do both. Since it's the big 40, I'm hoping to get a nap in as well! ;)

So here's to the last 40 years, may the next 40 be a little less eventful!! ...ya right...